I’ve deleted feed readers, read later, and social apps from my phone. I’m taking a break for the weekend at least. ✱.

I have a doctor appointment in a few minutes. It’s gonna be a tough conversation. I’m trying to show up for myself but speaking to medical professionals is scary as hell.

I’m still trying to sort out my disability support. I am honestly scared shitless of being deleted again. I have this irrational fear of being made homeless. I don’t know why. I’ve had it my whole life. Maybe in a past life or something 🤷‍♀️🤔

I’m questioning just how much I need to be on the internet. I mean actually really honestly WHY? It sucks. It’s sucks my energy away. And I sign up for that over and over. Every day.

I’ve had great experiences with internet people. And it’s a great resource. I wouldn’t be where I am today without it. Seems like an obvious statement.

But when I think about that. It’s become my life. So much of what I do seems to have some kind of internet goal these days.

I grew up for a time before it existed. And I don’t remember that being a problem. But then again we were all hooked on the TV instead.

Lots to think about. Lots to consider.

Maybe I’m using too many publishing platforms too.

I need my money to be efficient. Lean. Effective. I don’t have much. I need it to go a long way. I’m pretty good at that.

I don’t drink. I don’t smoke. I don’t do drugs. I don’t buy many things. When I do they’re things I’ve considered carefully that will last a loooooooong time. Then I look after them. And mostly they do last a long time.

In the meantime I put a little aside for the next tool or object. I wait. Until I’ve saved. I don’t have debts. (Actually I have one I don’t have to pay right now).

I’m a thrifty person. I’m responsible with what I have. I’ve learned that the hard way. I’ve fucked up my money so many times. Still do sometimes no matter how hard I try.

I don’t have much. More than some. Far less than the people deciding what we are allowed to have.

So maybe I could be more thrifty with my time and my energy. More efficient. For myself and my loved ones.

Stuff to ponder