I’ve been feeling a little better the last couple of days. The depression seems to be lifting.

I’m letting it lift in its own way. I’m looking after myself but I’m not trying to force any kind of way of being. Denying my self experience has been very harmful in the past. And I don’t want to repeat that.

But the crazy intensity remains.

Last night I cried my heart out because a character on Supergirl died. I felt so silly, but also it felt really good to get stuff out.

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The less I engage with social media, the less I miss it. Although I do miss chatting with some really nice people.

I’m enjoying keeping up-to-date about once a day and skimming past The Intensity. But for now, I’m choosing not to reply or engage with social content.

Someone from Micro.blog messaged me yesterday out of the blue. It was really nice to connect with someone from the community. This is what I wanna do more of- making connections.

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  • btw, this post will not be cross-posted to the Micro.blog feed, or Bluesky. So there will not be a replies box underneath. But I am always happy to hear from people in community whether we’ve already spoken or not.

  • posts that are not cross-posted can be found on the HP category and followed on their own RSS feed.

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On my phone, I disabled background app refresh for most apps. I did this a couple of weeks ago and it seems to have really helped. If I open an app now, I have to wait for it to do its thing and load in any new messages or content.

It’s a small thing that seems to have made a big difference. I don’t know why. It’s almost like I know my phone doesn’t have stuff to show me right now and that creates a bit more space. If I do want to see new things, I have to wait for it to download.

I already have notifications switched off anyway for most apps. But this seems to have made an extra little bit of difference that feels somehow lighter.

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In other news, I have a new photographic baby. But I will most likely talk about that another time.

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Happy Thursday 🌼

Over and out