I am trans. I am gay. I’m neurodiverse. I have a developmental disorder. I’m on the spectrum.

I have been in some VERY awful situations in my life. I am traumatised. I find life very challenging.

I’m doing my best.

This is not an apology. It’s my honour. To claim a space in this crazy world.

Today I had a reassuring conversation with my support worker who said that if I experience anything uncomfortable at the centre, I can let her know and she will be by my side.

I’m aware of a person‘s certain opinions about people like me. They haven’t made any trouble so I didn’t tell her who. 🤷‍♀️

My heated blanket will not release me. It has caught me in its cruel web of coziness and is preventing me from going to the kitchen for some food. I might just die of warmth and comfort.

Cardamom latte. Nice

Chapter 2 Remix was fun but mainly in a nostalgic way. I have lots of memories playing that map with my kids back in the day. Chapter 6 is looking exciting. I like the art style in the trailers and I hope it fixes some of the Chapter 5 taking itself too seriously #Fortnite 🎮

Christmas came early this weekend when I found my secret stash of frozen cauliflower.

My eldest kept me up late playing video games 🎮

YAY!

Every time the clocks change, I forget I have to change my Ricoh GR II manually. And the camera’s built in clock runs slow too! I often forget for months. So I have countless photos with the wrong time embedded. This has been going on for 8 years now and it rubs my perfectionism really bad.

A weather app displays the current temperature in Manchester as 4°C with a severe high temperature warning and cloudy conditions predicted overnight.

Well this is confusing

I took the camera out for a walk and wow it’s frickin gorgeous out there! I got lots of shots and it turned out to be a 2 battery day. The GR II never stops giving. What a beautiful camera, I think it’s my favourite I’ve ever owned.

A nice peppermint latte to start the day ☕️

I had a nice time playing Fortnite with my eldest tonight. We got a couple of wins. I always seem to get more wins when I’m playing with him 🤔😇🎮

I’ve been having some cognitive issue this week. I feel like I’m going crazy, or already gone. It’s very disconcerting.

I’m trying to look after myself but insomnia is making this very difficult.

🤷‍♀️

Looking for a bargain in the PS store 🎮

I miss my kids so much. I want them to grow up and live their own lives and I’m so proud of them, but also I wish they stayed little forever.

I have very nearly got Christmas presents sorted and a couple of winter birthdays too. I’ve also been stocking up on groceries ahead of time. That way I can basically chill out in December and avoid the madness. 😇🤞

Insomnia is the worst

Yes, but can AI come round and clean my flat?

Sea of Stars went back up to full price before I could buy it. Gutted. 🎮

We pretty much went from Autumn to Winter in one day here.

Had a good day in the countryside. Photography didn’t really work out though. I was struggling with the light a bit, and was a bit short of time in the end. But maybe I got one or two shots I might like. Some days just don’t work out creatively but I think that helps me grow.

A hand is holding a Costa coffee cup in a snowy park under a clear blue sky with snowy hills in the background

This was worth the trip! Hot chocolate and breakfast in the snowy hills. 📷 ❄️