I’ve been filling a form online. For hours. My brain is fkd. It’s really hard work. I’m neurodiverse and paperwork takes a lot out of me. (And it’s a form relating to my mental health disabilities!)

I’ll have to finish it tomorrow 😞

I have a lot of deliveries coming today. So it’s a day of staying in; rest and recouperation; slowly and gently getting things done; a bit of paperwork 😔.

First some Fortnite 😎🎮

This album is so beautiful. It’s earthy and transcendent; chill and rhythmic; tribal and ecstatic. All at the same time. I think this is already my favourite Jon Hopkins album. Just amazing and blissful!!! 🎵🎧

RITUAL by Jon Hopkins

Album art for Ritual by Jon Hopkins 2024

Blog post (my first on Pika): Good enough for me — I want to get a bit more focused and less distracted by the shiny toys and freedom to completely mess up a thing I don’t understand ✏️

I dreamed last night that that I had an extra finger beginning to grow between the existing ones. I was asking friends if it was new because I wasn’t sure if it had always been there or not.

In the same dream I had a patch of blue skin on my back.

👽🤷‍♀️

Mac n cheese is healthy when you add broccoli, right?

A wide angle view of trees and a green canopy, with some leaves turning an autumnal yellow. A footpath crosses the scene in the foreground.

A few moments of peace under the trees, on my way home from textiles group

I quite like Bluesky. But it’s an intense platform generally. I just want a peaceful experience tho, because I’m a delicate flower 🌸

My family has had a tough year, it’s been hard on my kids especially. I’m hoping to see my youngest tomorrow. It’s been a long while since we last hung out properly.

Wow. I really loved season 2 of The Rings of Power. It’s so much better than season 1, which I did actually enjoy more on a rewatch. Hmm. I hope we get more soon.

I’m trying out Pika and may partially switch my blogging to it. I will not be leaving Micro.blog, I really like the community. First post incoming soon..

I really miss my kids as they get older.

I love that they are discovering themselves and growing up and becoming adults.

But I do miss those kid-selves that they were. I miss them needing hugs and support and play and all that quality time we used to have.

And it makes me appreciate my own parents so much more as we all get older.

I think I’m having empty nest feelings. And wondering who I am as my parent-identity is changing into something new.

I’m feeling more and more myself. In a couple of days I’ll stop these meds completely. The headaches are already lifting. I feel lighter and seem to have more energy. But also having very unpleasant amounts of detox symptoms.

My body clearly did not like these pills.

I just had a very pleasant stroll in the rain, ending with lunch on a very wet bench by the pond in the park. Coming home with a wet bum is a theme for me.

I have played a lot of Cities Skylines Remastered today. Times flies when I play that game.

I spoke with my doctor and I’m coming off antidepressants completely. The side effects are just not worth it. I’m gonna white knuckle it again.

I’m on week 5 of daily (all day long) headaches, a side effect of medication I’m on. The doc told me to give it 4 to 6 weeks for them to go away. I think it’s time to come off the meds. The benefits are not worth this. I’m having to take a lot of pain killers and my quality of life is not good.

Grrr. The postman waited about 1 minute for me to answer my door (and then seemingly, vanished). So my parcel is coming tomorrow instead :(

I started playing The Plucky Squire last night. It’s very cute and a lot of fun.

In other news. I’m clearly fighting off some kind of bug. It hit me hard last night and I’m totally wiped out.

Wow. Dark Matter is a solid 10/10 for me. I was on the edge of my seat for the whole season. Its up there with Severance. I’m happy it’s getting another season and can’t wait for new Severance too. Wow wow wow.

Dark Matter has me hooked. Shall I watch more tonight or watch some more Fleabag? Hmm. I’m totally addicted and spoiled for choice!