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I’m home recovering from a few days away visiting family. I love being with them, but I’m really a homebody that gets tired quickly in social situations, no matter how welcoming.
Vibes: The sound of rain pattering on a caravan parked outside. Cool air drifting through a cracked window. A thick duvet cover. A grandfather clock chiming in a room down the hall.
I have two Album Whale lists now.
Life is a Soundtrack &
New Music
Which I will be cross-posting to MB and BS.
Let me know your Album Whale lists

My soundtrack to holidays on the North-West coast of Scotland as a teen. ~1990s
I used to listen to this album on a little cassette player that I bought from the Grundig electronics store in Mallaig.
Already, I was a fan of Clannad from the Robin Hood TV show. And this album became a gateway to more of their work, and later in life Celtic music generally.
It still brings happy memories of sitting by the sea listening to this on my tinny headphones.
I came downstairs this morning with a sleepy head to find myself triggering the burglar alarm in this house. 🤯
I think this is less accessible than their first album but it’s growing on me.

One of these songs (I think it was Emmylou) was put in my Up Next in my Apple Music app and I instantly fell in love.
This kind of music is usually way outside my listening sphere but I think I’ve been Favouriting enough songs from various YouTube lifestyle videos, that the algorithm did me a solid with this band.
This album and Stay Gold have been lifting my spirits in the last few weeks.
The Lion’s Roar by First Aid Kit

I have started a new Album Whale list for New Music. It’s a little blog about music that’s new to me. It’s tempting to make a list about all the music I’ve ever loved (half joking), but I think it’s better to start from this year. I have a few more to add for 2024, then it will be as they come..
I didn’t even know this band existed until a couple of weeks ago!! I love Radiohead and this definitely scratches an itch :)
A Light for Attracting Attention by The Smile

Some recent posts on my side-blog Being Me
Being Me is my personal side-blog about mental health; healing; spirituality; woo-woo; self-realisation and all that good stuff. I don’t normally share these posts to social feeds, but I like to share my experiences through writing and vlogging.
I had a great time in art group today. Just me and one other person had the whole room to ourselves.
I’m slowly getting into the groove of feeling free to make marks with no expectations. Just to play with materials and express however I want is a wonderful thing.
I slept for 3 hours when I got home
I’m enjoying the cozy late afternoon vibes..
- raining outside
- cooler temperatures
- woolly jumper
- watching a Cecilia Blomdahl YouTube video
- a hot pint mug of earl grey and honey
- a chocolate nut bar
- all obligations met for today
- a simple evening ahead
I’ve been finding life very challenging recently. I keep saying this, even though I’m tired of speaking it. Because it keeps ramping up. I think it’s best to acknowledge that and be honest – to admit I’m having a tough time.
I think so many of us are. But not many like to talk about it.
After seven years without psych meds I’ve gone back onto antidepressants this week. It’s too early to say if they’re actually helping or not. But I definitely feel like it’s a positive step forward for me despite feeling very conflicted about taking them again.
a zero sum game?
I’ve been experiencing a bit of a mental/emotional breakdown over the last few days. It’s been rough. And I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflection. Not deliberately, but it think it’s just part of it.
Parallel to this I finally came to the decision that I would go back onto antidepressants after seven years being off them. Day one has been very groggy so far.
I also realised I am spending far too much time and energy consuming the opinions and views of others, whilst partially abandoning my own truth and my self.
I really want to talk about this stuff a lot more. It’s super important. And maybe I will.
In the meantime I will be withdrawing somewhat from the current social media paradigm (again). Even from the wholesomeness of the Micro.blog timeline.
I don’t know what this will look like for me. But I need to address the balance of consuming and creating. And I fear that social media – no matter how wholesome – is an absolute dead weight in that equation. For me at least. As if trying to find balance is a futile exercise. A kind of zero sum game where the entire Internet always wins just because I took part in it.
What I love about the internet doesn’t have much to do with social media at all. I really enjoy reading blogs about people’s lives: their struggles and triumphs; their art; moments in their day; all that stuff. I enjoy interacting with them in my RSS feeds or email subscriptions. I love to reply and chat, or just offer empathy, a word of support about whatever it is.
Anyway.
I’m going to continue to post my work to these three blogs that I have (below). But I’m not sure how much of it I will share to social timelines (Micro.blog and Bluesky) any longer. Or how active I will be generally.
Maybe this is just a little break and I will ease myself back in later.
Thanks for reading,
Aeryn
My blogs-
- aeryn.me - mostly short form posts; thoughts; snaps and clips from my day
- Art Journal
- Being Me - longer posts, blogs, podcasts about mental health; healing; spirituality; woo woo
RSS feeds and email newsletters can be found on those sites.
Over, and out.
Tired of the anti-everything world ⚠️
This is about being trans. I don’t want to discuss the contents of this post. Please refrain from commenting. I’m just having a rant and I’m ok.
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I’m tired of understanding that people don’t understand.
I’m tired of not understanding why people can’t just be kind.
I’m tired of the violence against trans people. Whether it’s through micro-aggressions, ridicule, or murder.
I’m tired of trans people responding violently, whether that’s verbal, or through making ridiculous claims and demands.
Tired of people thinking they can speak on my behalf. Tired of people assuming they know what I need, or think.
Tired of people not understanding that the loudest voices are actually the minority.
Tired of the (social) (mainstream) media stoking the flames. Tired of people falling for it. Every. Time.
I’m tired of the pain experienced by trans people, and those around them, or opposing them.
I’m tired that the anti-trans discourse is 90% about trans women.
Tired of the agenda. Tired of the anti-agenda.
Tired of the mind-fuck, suppression, oppression, gaslighting, bullshit, backwards society we have finally devolved into.
Tired of being done with it.
This is not about being trans. It’s about everything.
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Anyone wants to talk, please message me privately. Peace.
Delaying Starbucks to sit, breathe, and take in this beautiful place. The air is sweet and humming with vibrancy.
I feel so lucky that this park is less than five minutes from my home. Over the years it has become my sanctuary. 📷