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Moving my personal blog and a new RSS feed URL (goodbye and thanks Micro.blog)
Hey :)
This is just a quick update on this post- RSS feed changes
I’m moving from Micro.blog to a new platform.
- I am going to be moving to a new blogging platform this weekend (for my personal blog). Maybe tonight. It just depends how things go.
- The aeryn.me domain will be moved to the new platform too.
- The new feed URL will be at https://aeryn.me/feed/.
- If you wish to continue to follow this blog in your feed reader, you will need to add it again because I am unable to add feed redirects on the new platform.
- My Micro.blog-hosted site will remain live for some more months whilst I continue migrating posts. But will eventually disappear, I expect.
- I do not intend to delete my account (I want to preserve timeline posts) but will let it lapse back to a free account.
- I will most likely not be posting to Micro.blog anymore. š¤·āāļø
- I am now microblogging on Mastodon and still adding Micro.blog folks there gradually. I love that I can continue to follow, although there does feel like some distance now, which is a shame.
- I cross-post from Mastodon to Bluesky too.
Lastly, although I will potentially write about Micro.blog again in the future, I just want to say thank you to Manton, support people, and the community. Thanks for making me feel welcome and being generally a friendly, supportive, and wholesome place.
Bye and see you around
Aeryn x
Edit to add: I think I may have figured out a RSS redirect at the new place. Not sure.
RSS feed changes
Hey,
I am migrating this blog (aeryn.me) to a new platform soon. And all existing RSS feeds will break.
I have set up a feed redirect on the current platform. If you would like to continue to follow my blog, please subscribe this new URL.
The new feed URL will be: https://aeryn.me/feed/
This URL will be the Atom feed address on the new platform, and should be a valid redirect until I complete the move. But I’m not sure all RSS feed clients will happily ‘subscribe’ to a redirect, or not.
So, if you subscribe and you don’t hear anything within a couple of weeks, please check my blog again. I’ll be posting RSS/Atom feed options on the new platform once I’ve moved over.
Insert grumpy post about Micro.blog here.
Honestly I donāt have the heart for it. Iām trying to be patient. But the level of friction is very high.
I just want things to work. I donāt want to have to repeatedly report bugs to get them to work. And I want there to be clear and unambiguous documentation and information available.
My soundtrack to 2008/2009. šµ
When Seldom Seen Kid came out I became an Elbow fan and delved into their back catalog. At the time, I was busy diving into photography in a really big way. And this album reminds me of wandering around Manchester City centre with my camera and people I met through Flickr.
My soundtrack to a very intense 2022. šµ
A medicine album that helped me through.
This is the soundtrack to the breakdown of my life. 2017. šµ
Itās was an intensely painful and paradoxically beautiful time. My mind was breaking down and I was having all sorts of crazy experiences whilst desperately trying to stay out of hospital.
And this music was my solace. I played it on repeat for hours at a time. Day after day. I never did get sick of it.
Itās my favourite Radiohead album and it will always mean so much to me.
Thursday morning thoughts
Iāve been feeling a little better the last couple of days. The depression seems to be lifting.
I’ve been watching videos about David Lynch recently on YouTube. Just clips mainly. And I’ve saved a couple of longform videos to watch about him later.
I was never really interested in him as a person whilst he was alive, but rather the art that he made. So I just didn’t really know much about him other than he’s just some director.
But the more I watch about him, the more I find him to be a very endearing soul. And the more I find myself falling in love with him.
I’m looking forward to diving into more of his work and getting to know him.
Switching this Log to HP Mode rss.
I don’t really have any idea how many people follow my social feeds, or follow my log via RSS. But I’m not posting to socials right now. So if you’re reading this, congratulations! you’ve found my secret stash.
Note: Categories XP and HP are intended to be mutually exclusive. XP cross-posts to Micro.blog and Bluesky. HP is for my hosted site only and is not cross-posted anywhere. I have temporarily changed the filter on the backend to default to HP for all new posts (instead of the usual XP). What a relief! I can post and not worry about it.
Because I canāt with social media right now. Iām still reading feeds but keeping it light and skimming past The Intensity.
Replies and messages are welcome.
Anyway, Iām in the middle of quite a major depressive episode. It came on quite suddenly on Monday morning. And a couple of times during the week it felt like it might be lifting. But then it got worse again, itās here and it will be here until itās not.
The world is intense. I am intense.
Today, you would have been 50.
When I came out š³ļøāā§ļø, you were there for me. But you moved on. Years later, I still miss you.
You were kind, funny, intelligent, a first class nerd. You were you.
I see you in my dreams sometimes and I know you’re ok. You know I am too.
One day in another life we will share another pint or three. I love you my best friendšŗ
A+++++++++
One of my favourite artists contributes field recordings (singing ice) and kulning on this album. I love this band so much.
I’m English but I swear to god I have some connection with the Nordic lands. This music seems to speak to my soul directly.
My soundtrack to 2019. For some reason I associate it with the first John Wick movie. Anyway, I just fucking love this album.
Oof. Feeling all kinds of things today.
I still have germs and I feel really crappy. So I canāt go be with my parents and kids today for a birthday celebration. Which is really sad because I already feel super-isolated from my loved ones.
Iām still feeling dissociative and just fucking weird. Empty. Restless. Hopeless. Depression (normal). Anxiety (normal). Hurt. Betrayed. Grief (normal). All normal actually.
Iām taking the time to be extra gentle with myself today. Iāve been writing recently about my past and itās a lot. Itās reminded me of all the things not mentioned. Some have nothing or little to do with being trans but have deeply affected me. Highly triggering events that so many have experienced but we just don’t mention. No, we donāt talk about that. I will find the time sometime soon to tell more of my story but itās even heavier than what Iāve already shared. And I want to honour it and be careful with it. Maybe a bit more than that recent post.
I mean. This is why I canāt hate people for fucking up. I used to. I was full of hate and anger. At others. At myself. But Iāve been on this healing journey so long Iāve naturally ended up somewhere I used to think I was supposed to make happen. You know? That yucky forgiveness and compassion thing. I thought I had to go to that directly. But actually I find myself there (somewhat, itās a journey) because I did the work for myself.
There. A place of feeling a lot of compassion and empathy for people who fuck up, people who lash out, people who have hardened hearts, donāt understand. Even the tyrants of the world. I canāt hate them. I canāt. Sorry about that.
It doesnāt mean Iām not utterly revulsed by some of what I see. It doesnāt mean theyāre part of my life, or I donāt recognise danger. I just means something else. Something new to me.
Is this growth? Or am I an enabler, an apologist, an idiot, mentally unwell?
But what about the victims?
And the people who are murdered, abused, oppressed, traumatised, rejected?
I know. Of course I know. Donāt we all? Of course they get my compassion. I am them. Of course.
This ok to say. Iām supposed to say it.
But. Apparently itās not ok to have feelings or say words that do not match a āsideā.
Fuck this war we are in. We are busy fighting when we are actually on the same side. Itās fucking ridiculous. We are being played.
Well Iām not doing it. I refuse. And I donāt care what anyone thinks about that. Iām just gonna walk my path. And Iām going to do my best to stay on it.
I am posting this to a new category on my blog: āHPā. RSS
HP is for posts I donāt really want to share out to socials. For various reasons.
Maybe I just donāt want it out there so much. Or I donāt particularly want any casual readers or responses this time ā considered, careful responses are always welcome. (And please if you are worrying whether you are considerate, you are.) Maybe Iām experiencing social fatigue. Maybe itās mainly just for me and itās not so important if anyone reads it or not. Or whatever. Just not feeling it.
This post is all of the above.
Hit Publish Aeryn. You can do i
I decided to allow myself to be a little bit unfiltered on public.me compared to anywhere else.
I have been feeling stifled by my own questioning the culture of other platforms and wondering whatās appropriate for a given community.
I looked into partitioning my micro.blog somewhat but it requires technical thingmabobs I donāt really have the skill for.
I find it really hard to relate to people and I have lots of weird experiences and out-there thoughts and ideas. To me theyāre real. To others, eh, not so much. But I still want to talk about them.
I owe myself that.
I decided to just go ahead and be really me, or whatās the point? And at least on a new platform people get to choose up front.
I couldnāt stand the idea of established acquaintances on other platforms feeling like I just suddenly start talking quacky stuff.
Anyway. Thatās a few thoughts about how this is a sideblog, a background blog, where you find me unkempt, slobbing it up and a bit disordered before I put a brave face on and post something half sensible over on aeryn.me or elsewhere Iām pretending to be normal.
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(Originally posted 18/11/2024, 22:42)
On public.me I find myself aimlessly looking for a post button and then I remember š¤¦āāļø itās in my messages app
(Originally published 18/11/2024, 22:30)
I’m interested in knowing a few things with public.me-
- what is the funding model and how is it sustainable?
- what is the privacy policy?
- is metadata stripped from media uploads before publishing?
- is there a plan to integrate android or other messaging platforms?
I have more questions and requests, but it seems premature to get into it all. Seems like the service is just 10 days old.
Things I like already-
- my posts are already on my device, because I sent them from iMessage
- there’s a RSS feed for my posts
- the website is nice and simple
- the roadmap looks good
- I’ve had a positive experience with the developer (I had a brain fart that caused my first couple of posts to fail)
Things I’m trying not to feel weird about (platform independent)-
- other people
- speaking my own truth
(Originally published 18/11/2024, 10:29)
Iām looking forward to the 19th. Pluto moves into Aquarius for 20 years and we have some more seemingly positive astrological shifts upcoming in the days and weeks ahead. I want to believe in astrology but I donāt often experience what the predictions say. Not consciously anyway. But itās always clearer once some time has passed. I feel all this grief and heaviness has got to shift soon.
(Originally posted 18/11/2024, 09:57)
Iām finding the internet is the most uncomfortable Iāve ever experienced it. Ideologically, people are polarised more than ever. Itās all about hatred, and undermining the personhood of others. Itās about calling for violence in the form of withdrawing support, help, kindness, compassion. Itās about rejecting, ghosting, and gaslighting. The worst part about it is itās really nice people saying it. People who deserve better, who have been trodden down their whole lives. So who can blame them? Honestly it hurts.
(Originally posted 18/11/2024, 09:25)