Tapestry and Micro.blog: does anyone know how to get an item to open the Micro.blog feed item rather than the hosted blog post? Like Reeder does.

I’ve hardly played Fortnite this season and it shows. Today I’ve played about 8 games and I didn’t last more than 4 or 5 miniutes in any of them. Except the last one….. 🎮

A still from the end of the film Koyaanisqatsi (1982) reading- Translation of the Hopi Prophecies sung in the film. If we dig precious things from the land we will invite disaster. Near the Day of Purification, there will be cobwebs spun back and forth in the sky. A container of ashes might one day be thrown from the sky, which could burn the land and boil the oceans.

I just watched Koyaanisqatsi (1982) 🎥. An intensely beautiful film. I’m just blown away and have no words to describe the journey I’ve been on for the last 90 minutes. I feel like I need to be quiet for a few days to take it all in.

Sometimes art can change your life. This might be that.

I've been on Micro.blog for just over a year and it's time to renew for another

I have successfully downgraded my Micro.blog account to the standard plan. It was pretty seamless and easy and will take affect in a few days.

Reasons are nothing to do with the recent micro drama but mainly because I realised I just don’t really need all those features, particularly. And the standard plan represents great value.

I do believe this is a great platform, and an extremely valuable part of the Internet. But I’ve found at times it’s just a bit too glitchy and chaotic for me.

I would love to see Micro.blog become a solid, stable platform. But in my perspective, it isn’t really that at the moment. And I don’t think it’s for casual users at all. Although maybe Micro.one is.

Then again, I have no idea what it takes to keep something like this going. I can appreciate that it must be incredibly hard work.

So thanks to Manton and everyone else working behind the scenes and contributing to the platform in various ways.

I’ve really enjoyed getting to know some people a little, and beginning to feel like I’m a part of an online community again after leaving the socials behind. And I’m really glad some of the more uncomfortable features and behaviours of social media are not present here.

Here’s to another year.. 🍻

I really love how much writing I can get done with my voice. My devices provide a friction-free experience of getting thoughts onto ‘paper’, in real time.

It could be better, but this is the best it’s ever been.

I do have to be alone for this to work effectively, otherwise it’s socially weird.

Things that spike anxiety- appointments that are later in the day. Basically anything not in the first half of the morning

😩

Aaah. I love Billy Connolly. I just watched Made in Scotland. So good. So heartwarming. He’s part of my culture. I remember watching him at various times all through my life, pretty much. He truly has the soul of an artist. Very inspiring.

Pika users: For you, does the new lightbox thingy have arrows to move to the next photo? If so, do I need to publish my photos as a grid or doesn’t it matter?

Or are there no Next/Previous arrows?

I want to feel safe.

The amount of work I’ve needed to put in to this benefits change over has been crazy. I’m so tired of it. It’s exhausting. I spent hours today trying to figure out my money. And I have an unexpected telephone appointment with them tomorrow. I thought it was all done.

Been thinking about that micro.blog situation and how it all went suddenly, magically quiet

Very weird. 💿

I’m glad to still be here. Tho I am downgrading my account for completely unrelated reasons.

Lessons learned for me. Might write about that some time.

Gotta get my own house in order

(and thanks all who messaged me or replied last week, it’s really nice to feel heard, and part of a community 💜)

I had a few days away with my parents for some r and r. I’ve been extremely stressed and it really helped. It’s so nice to spend time with them.

A thumbnail of a YouTube video featuring Obi-Wan Kenobi singing into a microphone. The title reads Star Wars Musical.

https://youtu.be/d9OmUsV-gh0

A bare-branched pollarded tree growing out of a gravel embankment. Its shadow falls on the slope to the right. More bare trees in the background and a blue sky above.

Out on a sanity walk today.

It’s difficult to get a good angle on this tree. It looks great since they cleared this embankment. I want to get it while a train goes past. 📷🌳

Today thoughts

I’ve deleted feed readers, read later, and social apps from my phone. I’m taking a break for the weekend at least. ✱.

I have a doctor appointment in a few minutes. It’s gonna be a tough conversation. I’m trying to show up for myself but speaking to medical professionals is scary as hell.

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I’m gonna be taking an internet break. I might post but I won’t be reading.

Feeling all sorts of stuff. Depleted. High anxiety. Endless worry. Depression. Hopeless. Shame.

I have a lot on my plate right now that needs my energy, attention and care.

I never wanted to be writing a blog as a reaction to the world. That’s what I did on Facebook and Twitter years ago. I left those platforms and that reactionary mentality behind. Or so I thought.

When I express myself I want it to be from within me. Not as a shield, or defense against a world of illusion. I want to be truthful and authentic. I don’t want to take on and repeat the truths of others. I only want to find my own truth and considerately express that.

I wasted a bunch of time last night on someone else’s drama. I got emotionally involved with something that now seems like was information presented in bad faith. Or maybe just something completely unrelated and turned into something it was never intended to be.

Whatever the truth of that is doesn’t matter to me. I have enough challenges of my own already.

I was very late to bed and I didn’t look after myself properly. It’s essential that I care deeply and make time for my own needs. So I can show up for my actual real life.

Getting into that drama at bedtime was me not looking after myself. Even just picking up my phone at that time was a seriously bad idea.

If I had not done that, the whole thing would have started, ended and disappeared whilst I was sleeping.

The world is extremely intense and it’s so easy to lose myself in it. When I am trying to find myself.

I can do better.

I had a knee-jerk reaction last night to something that seemed to be heavily implied to be about @manton . Now those posts are gone. I didn’t wait for a response from him and allowed myself to be influenced by assumptions. I just went with the herd. Because it felt safe. I’m sorry.

Why did I check the feeds on my way to bed?

I guess if that is what it seems to be then there won’t be any statement. That’s the way it works now. No talking, even if it’s uncomfortable. No moving forward even if it means compromising. No healing even if it hurts along the way.

I think it was handled badly by all tbh. Even tho personally I didn’t have much of a problem with the original incident. I don’t have a problem with anyone involved. Just mainly with how overly personal it became.

There were missteps all round. Yucky yucky yucky.

Stuff to think about

Oh shit! This is a big nope for me. I might be out. Not sure. Fuck.

I’d like to hear some kind of statement about this